I’ve always been extremely interested in how each person individually deals with life. We all have our own set of problems, our own set of goals, dreams, aspirations, experiences and our self-created milestones that we absolutely feel we need to achieve in order to set a standard for the rest of the world. But in the end, what are we honestly trying to accomplish? Aside from the basic here-and-there improvements that put us at ease and make us feel like better people, what is it that forces that never ending dissatisfaction in our minds? You know, that need to want to become someone else, someone better, someone different, and set everyone else in the world as examples except for ourselves. We want to look like that person on that bilboard. We want to experience the same career path as this guy or girl (and are even ready to blindly deal with all the pain and suffering they went through if it equals to guaranteed success). We want to trade lives with people we’ve met, go back in time and take back things we’ve said. We want to preview millions of possibilities of how we could have lived if we’d done one thing differently and see what it’d look like today. But at the end of the day, are we really convinced that getting that seven-figure salary will provide us with instant gratification? Or that constantly pursuing a soul mate will end all feelings of loneliness? Or that being on the front page of a magazine will relieve the curiosities of knowing what it feels like to actually be the center of attention?
It’s undeniable that there are always things for us to chase in life (thankfully, because that’s what constantly keeps us going). There will always be a way to want something that we can’t have, try something that we’ve never tried or experience something completely new and different. There will always be that extra something that makes us feel like we’d have everything. The problem is, we’ll often achieve those goals and get what we want, but immediately brush off the relief by adding on something even better to fight for. As humans, we rarely just sit down, look at what we actually do have and think “Fuck, I’m lucky”. We’re always in a self-destructive battle, trying to fight out last month’s version of ourselves and recreate a brand new and improved model that becomes obsolete the second it’s ready. It’s a never ending battle that if not dealt with the right way can prove itself to be hurtful in the end as it can blind us from true happiness.
The truth is, there will always be things that make you feel like shit. Whether it be a bad day at work, a break up, a decrease in your credit score, a fight with a friend, gas prices increasing, a TV show being cancelled, a store not having your shoe size, the weather, the stock market tanking, or anything else in the world that makes you want to crawl into bed, throw headphones on, and listen to emotion-stirring music; just make sure that when the time is right, you do actually look at the flip side of things and acknowledge what you have accomplished, and what you do have. I know this may seem like the most obvious, most simple, most redundant and basic piece of information you’ve ever read, but in all honesty, it’s often necessary to go back to square one and rebuild foundation when you’re caught in a situation that feels like an unsolvable labyrinth with no escape. And in life we often have to deal with those obstacles that at that very moment seem like the end of existence because they impair us from having any form of peripheral view of the world. Those problems happen all the time and they most likely will until the day we die. The important part isn’t how many of them we’re put up against or how bad they are; it’s whether or not we choose to translate them into ammunition and fight for that smile on our face.
“Don’t say a word just come over, and lie here with me. Cause I’m just about to set fire to everything I see. I want you so bad I’ll go back on the things I believe. There I just said it, I’m scared you’ll forget about me.”—John Mayer, Edge of Desire.